It’s been a hot minute since I gave any sort of blog update. Most of the time I just come to the site to futz with the appearance and playing with plugins. I get so wound up in certain aspects that I’ll spend a number of hours on one thing and then get sick of looking at it for like 5 days. 

I also think I should find things to blog about that feel positive and/or fun and lately I haven’t been feeling very positive and/or fun. 

I’m valiantly fighting off intrusive sleep right now; brain wants to avoid task so it’s telling me to take a nap. There’s no actual “catching up on sleep” but I’m working with sleep deficit something AWFUL.

I’m just. Slipping.

I have been making more mistakes. I’ve been forgetting things. I’ve been getting stuck in an insane failure spiral. 

I’m too burnt out to recalibrate. Every time I try to think of how I could possibly get myself back to a state where I’m not fumbling, I just end up feeling like screaming (and that’s the best case scenario I come up with).

REGARDLESS–

I have been making little efforts to at least make things worthwhile. I put my display gems in a case! I’ve started journaling when I have the energy to. 

I’m keeping my eyes peeled for the local Spirit Halloween to pop up. I require spooky season. Surely that will fix me.

Things will be okay. They’re not really okay now, but that’s normal and I will be okay on the other side of this pain.